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disenchanted

cause I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby

like a stitch in my side

wishes are stitches

for the wounds that we get

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Music saves our souls navigations are the fours lines of lyrics. they are profile, entries, tagboard and links navigations respectively (from the top).	Thursday, August 6, 2009, 4:36 AM Where the hell? I've been away from here for forever! But thanks to the great stress I'm in cos of the three fucking exams we have on tuesday, I am here to entertain you! okay maybe not. I just want to talk to Girl at the Rock show. Where the hell have you been?! Tmr national day alr eh. better see you tmr. Eh. Blogger posting still screwed sia. wtf. I don likeeeeee. ): Stupid blogger. Ah. actually I have nothing to say. I wanted to put my drawing here but blogger is still effed up so yah. Wokay. byebye world :D Friday, May 8, 2009, 4:01 AM Warning: Long American Idol Rant Ok I've been holding all this in for so long (haha sounds like kena diarrhoea or something) because if i let myself blog about Idol after every performance, this whole place is gonna become some Adam shrine then Little Miss Messed Up will get annoyed with me cos she will be so jealous and besides, raving about some guy isnt the point of a shared blog.(speaking of which we havent updated in awhile cos we ponned our 1st cooking lesson and now we dont know when's the rest) BUT I CANNOT TAHAN ANYMORE! KEEPING QUIET WILL MAKE ME SWELL UP THEN BURST AND EXPLODE!!! (lol swell up. Like pregnant liddat) 1. ADAM. IS. GAY. (OR BI) Why does this always happen to me?? First Gerard then Frank then Quinn then Danny then Siriano then (were there some more?) then now Adam. Dammit the 1st time I saw him plus subsequent times I thought he looks really damn manly. Pfft. And then there came these 2 great pictures of him kissing some guy, 1 in full theatre makeup glamour, the other with tongue. (omg Adam's tongue is damn nice!) jafdlkfjdslfkjdlfjlkdasj I thought Adam was perfect! He's like THE hottest guy I've ever seen in my life, he's got the sexiest voice ever, he can sing anything and make it work, he's got a sense of humor, his laugh is very cute, he's so humble and always thanks people in that sincere way that is so different from the other contestants, and then now he has to be gay!?!?! :( 2. Adam kena-ed the bottom two once Because some people do not vote responsibly. Stupid people who only vote for Kris' looks (which is 100times lesser compared to Adam's) and Gokey's sob story. HOW CAN! 3. ALLISON GOT TO DUET WITH ADAM! During rock week yeaaaaaahhhh!!! And I am so jealous! It was SO GOOD yet SO HORRIBLE and I nearly died there watching it, because their rocker voices are just AWESOME together and they look SO PERFECT up there together on that stage, like they are meant to be, and I wanted to scream, to scream in hysteria and madness and crazyness because as much as I am so happy for them, it was horrible cos it made me feel so jealous. And Kara/Paula (cant rmb who) called them "Rock God and Rock Goddess" and Paula said they're "A perfect match, a perfect MARRIAGE". MARRIAGE. MARRIAGE. MARRIAGE!!!!! SHE SAID MARRIAGE!!! And then this got me freaking cos I suddenly got this idea that, what if Adam and Allison fall in love (if he's bi and not gay.), and nevermind that she's 10years older than him cos celebs marry people much older/younger than them all the time, and then what if they have this goth wedding and live in a big goth mansion and rockout and have a bunch of cute little goth kids and then they become like the Addam's Family, geddit, the ADAM'S family??? MANNN! I think it'd be really cool! But I'd be BURSTING with jealousy, my nostrils will leak green. I mean Allison's my favourite contestant after Adam, and if they got together it'd be bloody cool and I'd be really happy for them, (like how Avril married Deryk Whitby the Sum41 guy, but even cooler) but I'd have this little nagging feeling of "AHHHHHHH! MY ADAM! WHYYYYY!" And then I'd feel so sad cos they'd be all the way in America rocking out and no one can stop them and then I'm stuck here in Singapore having one helluva time hoboing around. I guess it's kinda hard cos I actually like Allison, and if she marrys Adam I'd feel like hating her, but I can't because I'm a big fan and AHHH ITS SO HARD TO TAKE YA KNOW? Just like how when I first saw Allison I felt like hating her because she's got that cool flaming red hair and all that mixture-of-goth-and-elegance rockchick clothes and her voice is SO KILLER for such a young girl and it makes me freaking jealous but I just COULDN'T hate her cos she's so awesome. That kinda thing. And she gets to hug him like nobody's business! Ahhhhhhhh! But then Adam said about Allison, "yeah she's like my little sister!" :D But then there's such a thing as "inscest" D: 4. ADAM KEEPS TOUCHING HIS DKLJFRLDKFJLDNLDFKJL!!!! I saw it happen like at least 3 times okay! First in Satisfaction then Ring Of Fire then in the duet with Allison. In the first 2 he did it veerrrrrry discreetly, his hand sliding here sliding there near his legs then later go down there. But in the duet IT WAS SO OBVIOUS it was like FULL-ON CROTCH GRAB omgomgomg!!!! :O But then I wouldn't blame him, cos if I were as hot as him, I'd probably want to do that to myself all the time. 5. This is not Adam related, but ALLISON GOT BOOTED :( Even though stupid Gokey totally couldn't pull off the screaming he did at the end and he sounded like a dying strangled chickenand Allison's performance was so much better than his! Again, irresponsible voters. THEY BETTER VOTE PROPERLY FOR THE NEXT ONE AND THE FINALS. HAVING A KRIS vs GOKEY FINALS WILL NOT BE EXCITING. AND IT REALLY WOULDNT BE FAIR. Sunday, April 19, 2009, 8:41 AM Stitch up the heart Like a stitch in my side; Wishes are stitches For the wounds that we get. If I wished for riches Would it better my bet? Wishes are itches That cling on so dear, If my heart broke to pieces Would that be my new fear? Wishes are glitches That come with the ride If I wished for you Would you be by my side? Shooting star, Make a wish, Think hard, long and far If it came true, I'd relish If it doesn't, At least, I came this far. Wednesday, April 15, 2009, 4:31 AM Hit Play Thursday, April 9, 2009, 3:55 AM Red And Black Emotions Of How I Love You To Death Another thing I wrote! This one is the best I've written so far. You may or may not be disturbed, it's a little bit morbid. :P Verse 1: Metal ribbons from your bouquet of black roses shred my fingers Shred my fingers to ribbons Bloodied flesh ribbons stroking metal ribbons A glowing bundle of flowing steel A growing puddle of flowing blood Just like our hearts Mine, red-rushing Yours, cold, black, and hard Chorus 1: Red and black, my favourite colours Swirling in you, swirling in me Emotionally scrawled on the wall, in dripping red words Your declarations of love Emotionally sprawled on the floor, blackout, total knockout A lockdown of consiousness Verse 2: Sharp edges from the words you carelessly spit out pierce my soul Pierce my soul to a hole The whole of you piercing the whole of me A glowing wall of burning fire A growing toll of burning pain We pull apart You, red-flaming Me, whimpering in the dark Chorus 2: Red and black, my favourite colours Surging through you, surging through me Emotionally scrawled on the wall, in screechy black scratches Your lamentations about life Emotionally sprawled on the floor, knocked down, pushed around Pooling red on the ground Bridge: I'd rather be your dead sugar than not be with you at all I guess this is what it means to love someone to death So come to me now, come take my breath Stroke me with a knife, come take my whole life Repeat choruses I guess this is what it means to love someone to death... OMG IS THIS AWESOME OR WHAT! I think how I played around with the words was damn smart, even though I say so myself. It's about this girl who won't leave her boyfriend even though he's abusive and stuff because she just loves him too much and she'd die for him because she literally loves him to death. HELL YEAH GOTHIC ROMANCE! (We're learning about that in Lit now. But I still don't see how Frankenstein is Goth or even Romantic) By the way I'm not writing from personal experience. I wouldn't be so stupid to get an abusive boyfriend in the first place!-_- I didn't even intend to write something about this and I totally surprised myself :) But don't ask me about the tune, I also don't know. Yet. I've gotta thank Chem lessons for this though cos the metal ribbons thing, I got from those Magnesium strips we were using for prac lessons, and that's what started the whole thing. And the dead sugar part, it came about because the teacher was talking about sugar decomposing and people were all like "omg eew!", being the stupid immature overreactive shits they are, and she said "Don't think decomposing is only about corpses and things dying okay, because it's not" then the phrase "dead sugar" popped up in my head. WHOO and I managed to do this in about 2 weeks only. Would someone please come and hire me?? :D , 2:41 AM Fucking 104 I got my grade 8 piano exam results. And I got a fucking 104. That means I passed by just 4 fucking marks. WHAT. THE. FUCK.? I'm damn pissed! My mum told me the news and I started crying for 1 whole hour then after that I cried myself to sleep. At first I was aiming for a Distinction because for grade 5 I got 125 and grade 6 I got 127 and I wanted to improve my shitty scales by those little 3 marks to get at least a 130. (Didn't take grade 7) Walaoeh this is like way low! It's not even a Merit. Once I finished my exam I knew I couldn't get a Distinction already but I thought I'd be able to at least scrape a Merit. And I get a bloody 104??? Do you know how ugly that cert looks? All my other certs say "This is to certify that The Girl At The Rock Show was examined in Grade whatever Piano and passed WITH MERIT in whatever year" and now that Merit is gone and it's just "....passed in 2009". That's it. It looks so ugly and incomplete sitting on my piano like that! And the paper with the examiner's comments is damn ugly also! The 104 at the corner there is so ugly and tainting. I freaking failed my C list song by 1 mark and just passed my A list song, and for the B list one I got only 23 when I expected to get at least a 25. How could I fail that song?? I've never failed a song before and in fact I used to get all high 20s for my pieces and there's once I got a 29 which is 1 short of fullmarks. And I only passed my scales by 1 and I'm so fucked off because I put in so much effort into the scales and I totally made no mistakes, except one where I mistook what the examiner was saying cos of his Brit accent and played the wrong scale. But apparently my best wasn't good enough because I played TOO SLOWLY wtf. Sight reading was okay. Screwed aural. Couldn't hear the fucking bass. Don't come and tell me shit like "At least you passed right" and "Alot of people fail grade 8 on their first try what..." SO WHAT if I passed?? You actually go for a piano exam with the intention of actually passing the damn thing, so passing should be expected and not come as a surprise like "Oh hey I scaped a pass by a little bit, wow this is so great!", I mean why the hell do you even go if you know you're gonna fail?? I'm making such a fuss because piano is one of the few things I REALLY truly care about, and hell yeah it matters to me. It matters to me a whole fuckload. Why do you think I don't give a shit whether I fail my school exams or get a 4.0 but sit around and cry about this? You probably don't understand at all. But isn't it ironic how I got damn good for most of my exams but got some shit mark for piano? Really it should be the other way round since I don't even care about my schoolwork. (Funny how I didn't study much and got higher than the RA people ahahaha losers!) I think it's cos now I don't practice on Guitar days where I come home late and I just do my work instead. I guess it's always the case of "something's got to give", and next time it's not gonna be my piano results. Now I'll probably be brushing up on my skills abit more then I'll prepare for the teachers Diploma. I plan to take it by the time I'm 19. :) But I'm still pissed >_< Friday, April 3, 2009, 3:44 AM whooo we're a bunch of miniature guitar-playing soonkuehs Haven't blogged in ages again...nothing to blog about luh now we both different class then never do anything spastic together. :( Nevermind at least our cooking/pukemakeup/pukesome-other-yuck-thing-which-i-forgot classes are all on the same day! Uh which is, when? I don't know she also don't know o_O See lah that's what happens when 2 blur/cannot-care-less-about-that-kind-of-crap people signup for something together. Hmm my vocab must be disappearing cos I keep using those long-hyphenated-string-of-words to describe things. Bah who cares I'm sick of thinking. Anyway last week we had guitar full dress rehearsal, and the makeup was damn disgusting I tell you! I kinda sabo-ed Abi to go first so she was the guinea pig and she ended up having round concentrated red cheeks and a big clown mouth ahahaha damn funny! Too bad I couldn't sneakily use my phone to take a pic cos guitar is full of prefects. She ended up looking like some prostitute, I bet if she went to Geylang like that she would have gotten at least 5 offers in half an hour :P Mine didn't go quite well though, Anna somehow managed to get lipstick on my teeth and cheek and eyeshadow on my nose. o_O Then my mum's foundation powder was wayyyyy too white for me cos she's a Chinese and I'm only half of one, so it didn't really work, so I used Abi's but somehow that made me look very white too which was weird since it worked fine on her and she's darker than me by abit. This kind of makeup is so not my friend. And the eyeshadow was fucking green!! Bloody bright fucking ugly green! And some soonkueh instructed them to put it like really really thick on us, just like the blusher which made us look like a bunch of people who just got bitchslapped. Not to mention the disgusting bright slut red lipstick. Seriously man. And hair is standardised too, everyone must tie one ponytail, SO BORING. Then I cannot tie my trademark 2 ponytails then in photos I will look botak!! Where is the creativity man?? Lastime we didn't even have to tie our hair and we could wear dangly earrings. Who performs in a freaking ponytail??? Talk about unglam. Plus we have to tie a white and green ribbon there urgh disgusting and the shade of green dosent even match the green on our jackets and it's so small so who's gonna see it?? And guess who's brilliant idea it all was? We all ended up looking like her lah wtf. And she gave the lame excuse of "your costume's green". So?? Our costume's black and white too! Why can't we have like silver eyeshadow or something decently okay?? Walou I heard somewhere that Angklung is doing the smoky eyes thing with eyeliner and stuff? Lucky for Little Miss Messed Up :( Damn I'm chao worried for SYF, I'm scared we won't even be able to scrape a Gold, much less with Honours. I'm trying to be positive but seriously lah our standard is like dunnowhat, there's no consistency at all and then some people still keep forgetting the dynamics even though we've reminded them a million times and I told them to put markings on their scores if they're prone to forget but we don't seem to be progressing. And we've been working on the dynamics and expressions since ages okay I don't know how some people can't remember. And even simple things like rests where you have to mute the guitar, it's like one of the most fundamental stuff in music note reading, but sometimes people still can forget them in the Mozart song, so when there's supposed to be a nice total silence, there are some weird niao niao niao sounds in some corner. I'm not blaming people, it's the ensemble's effort as a whole, but mannn we are like abit not progressing lor. We need the consistency in our playing and I don't know how to help, I think we need more passion because some people really aint serious about the whole thing. During the rehearsal the timing and co-ordination was totally OFF like dono what shit I think it was one of the worst practices ever it was so depressing and ___ was emoing all the way then I dont know what to say to her when she gets like that cos I'm bad around sad people cos I myself rarely become sad then I'm scared I'll say the wrong thing then I couldn't sleep that night you know cos her emoing made me feel so bad for her even though how we play is really not her fault but I think she blames herself anyway. Ugh and it dosent help that Trio isnt a very good song choice. Why can't we play something like the Queen Of Sheba or something, we're damn good at that! Buh...I hope it's going well at Little Miss Messed Up's side and she'll get Honours, and hopefully by some miracle we'll get Honours too and not screw stuff. :X		thedeceptionists The Girl At The Rock Show x 15 without a purpose or direction, I don't owe anyone a fckin' explanation. x Guitar Ensemble, Alto 2. x Welfare Officer. You fell in love With the Girl at the Rock Show. She said, "Why?" You told her that you didn't know. Little Miss Messed Up x 15 and absolutely messed up x Angklung Ensemble, Kulintang Sect. x Treasurer. x Persatuan Bahasa Melayu, a.k.a PERBAYU. x Young Minds Club, a.k.a YMC. And when the lights all went out We watched our lives* on the screen		partnersincrime Ashlynna Alisa Azaac Clarissa Crystal Denise Farah Kester Nazihah Murnira Victoria Xin Yuan Your Best Friend's Scandal Funny Shit MinahSpeak.LJ We Love Emo Google The Website We Made For You backtoyesterday + Where the hell? + Warning: Long American Idol Rant + Stitch up the heart + Hit Play + Red And Black Emotions Of How I Love You To Death + Fucking 104 + whooo we're a bunch of miniature guitar-playing so... + I don't have a title for this song yet + Why you're a Minah ah! + Someone's Birthday todaaaaay wheni'mgone + April 2008 + May 2008 + June 2008 + July 2008 + August 2008 + September 2008 + October 2008 + November 2008 + December 2008 + January 2009 + February 2009 + March 2009 + April 2009 + May 2009 + August 2009 takeabow An accidentality production Inspiration from DancingSheep & BONBON:D		theventingmachine